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Out of my mind,
My mind, my mind
My life and my choice
To exorcise you
From my world.
My world.
What world?
No world.
No touch, no taste
No smells, no fuck
Cardboards and computers.
Microphones and profiles
Fake profiles and faces
What faces?
No faces.
No face.
Someone else’s face.
Face and body
Body and soul
Soul and life
And lies.
Lies and more lies.
Liar liar
Pants on fire.
Heart on fire,
On the cross fire
Shot down to the ground
Die, die. Dead now.
Like a worm in a hole
A bug on the wall.
Out of my mind
My mind, my mind
My mouth spits out
Black words
Like the dark clouds
That surround you
Tar. Black tar.
Sticking everywhere
Now everyone’s scared
Scared of my mouth
And my mind,
My powerful mind
My power full mind
Filled with all those
Thoughts of revenge
Filled with nothing
My world.
What world?
No world.
No flight, no fight
No promises, broken ones
Ice cubes and computers
Imagination and disappointment.
Fake profiles and faces
What faces?
No faces.
No face.
Someone else’s face.
Face and body
Body and soul
Soul and life
And lies.
Lies and more lies.
No more words.
Love is a verb
Love is a verb.
In my world.
My world, my world.
My real world.
My mind, my mind.
My life, my fucking life.
Now much better
Since I’ve seen the light.
The light in the middle
Of all this darkness.
I praise the dark today
Without it I’d be lost
Lost in the grey
The grey matter
Of a sick bastard.
A sick bastard
Who’s out now.
Out of my life.
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"The Dream"

I had a dream about a dream
Saw myself sleeping
You were laying next to me

Your eyes were stars
Blinking upon my sky
I held my breath
You always make me fly

That time was like never
And like always
So we went there deeper,
Where nothing is waiting,
And found everything
Waiting just for us.

I had a dream about a dream
You were dreaming it with me
The same dream together

My eyes were waterfalls
Soaking your skin
I held my gaze
You move me with no effort

That time was like never
And like always
So we went there deeper,
Where nothing is waiting,
And found everything
Waiting just for us.

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Do you
Even know
How long it’s been
I’m still here

The moon is full
The sun will come soon
And it’s clear

I am not
Going anywhere
Anytime, love.
I am too
Waiting here
Patiently.

The crowd is gone
Music’s still on
Hours fly by
And just the sight of you
Makes me smile
For a long while...

And I,
Don’t even know
How to say this
To you.

You’re on your own
I’m all alone
The same too

I miss you more
Every day Dayday…
And I wished you’d say
That you’d stay, stay, stay.

Do you
Even know
I don’t really
Know anymore

What’s what and
When is where
Cuz I forgot

I asked you if
You were still scared…
But I know

The answers are
Inside my heart
I know the game
I’ve lost before

There’s so much more
That I don’t know
But I know something
Something new

I’ve never knew
What love was really
Until I knew you.
Until I knew you.

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“The Singularity”

Stuck in this universe
Way way too long
Looking for a escape hatch
Nature’s furry pulls me back

Radiowaves spread the news
10 Billion planets will know
I’m in the eye of the storm
Lost all my shape and form

Helene, Super-Nova, Spaceship
Save me
Pull me out now
Pull me out now

Helene, Super-hero, Black-hole
Save me
Pick me up from the ground
Pick me up from the ground

Compressed in this room
Two years have disappeared
I’m liquid metal fusion
I’m turning into tears

It makes no sense
I’ve lost my will to see
What’s in front of me
Other side of Infinity

Helene, Super-Nova, Spaceship
I will save you
Bring you in
Bring you in

Helene, Super-hero, Black-hole
I will save you
Take you on now
Take you on now.

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"The one for me"

Esoteric truths
Floating from my mouth
Living this awaking dream
I scream and hear no sound

Full bodied enthusiasm
Connected on the wall
I can’t separate what's real
So I close my eyes and dream

But this unshakable knowledge
Almost self-illuminated
She radiates love towards me

And this unparalleled connection
Almost psychic pollution
She’s the one for me

Cosmos of loving kindness
Send her my heart in a box
I don’t need it anymore

Cosmos of loving kindness
Pay me back with kisses
I need nothing more

All these unseen forces
Pulling me back in
I’ve given up control
Cannot deny the voices

Universal mind lattice
Inner calling grounding
Forever staying within
Nothing is stopping me

But this undeniable power
A perceptual sensitivity
She’s bringing me to my knees

And this mission I’ve acquired
Borderlines insanity
She’s the one for me.
But...she was only a dream.

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"Our Story"

she will not open
I knew that
waiting at her gate
it was not my time
but wanton desire beckoned
almost roared
so I let myself be blinded
even though the snow was melting
It wasn't that at all
even though the circle was imperfect
but it wasn't that
even though I'd heard no call
I blindly trusted it

when I communed with her
in that refuge from the snow
darkness descended before I knew it
walls folded impossibly outwardly in
escaping voices twisted away
I laid alone in the desecrated temple
It's heaving walls and unfunhouse ride
she would not open

I reached up to broken shards
then down to a vagrant pillow
broken slants of light
more distant muffled sighs
we allowed our rivers flow
perhaps never whole
I knew not how I'd come
to this crazy house
I must go out
if there were a way out

rolling over i found some signs
then the broken sharp things again
then - somehow not surprisingly -
a berber carpet under me
I rolled some more
hands fumbled on an edge
reached down
a stair...
another...

I dragged my body on my knees
came almost head over heals
(head over heals?)
boarding down the stairs
arms and legs my wheels
but she stopped me -
no, not SHE, but just she -
and asked me where i was going

'oh, someone's here!'
yes
'come back'
I crawled back in the dark
back into the broken temple
less broken now
but no less desacralized
'ouch! you're stepping on me!'
the stepping stopped
'sorry!' came a distant sigh

as light and sanity blinked on
I held my breath for both
I glimpsed the menacing shards
merely seashells along the wall
we gradually told our stories -
for those with two ears
and presented all the proof
blue eyed goddess posing
suddenly just disappeared
while others silently grinning
their hands over their mouths
they laughed, they humans

but I was never right
foolish deed of mine
so it was done
(is it really done?)
and all that it is left
this wonton desire
and it quickly killed me.

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My body tossing and turning
Sleeping is no longer an option
Sun burnt skin, sweating
Heart frozen and broken
You are out to the seas
I am sitting here
My mind goes to shore
My soul screaming:
"Come to me"
Sail your boat
To my direction
With you I need to be
I want to believe we will
Sooner than later meet.
Throw your ropes
Into this ruff ocean
Or I will surely drawn
In my own contradicting
And extreme emotions.
You are out to the seas
I am sitting here
Watching my falling
Question mark tears
"Come to me"
Sail your boat
With real intention
I want to believe
Sooner then later we will meet.
My body tossing and turning
Another day soon starting
Does any body have a clue
How hard it is loving you?

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Triste Azul

Lá vem ela...
Troca de roupas
Seca os cabelos
No seu rosto, a tristeza estampada.

Às vezes, nos seus olhos, ainda belos,
Lágrimas...
Azuis como o céu,
Azuis como o mar,
Mal sabe ela.

Ai se ela soubesse,
Que o brilho se foi para tão longe...
Ai se ela soubesse,
Que só ela pode reacendê-los...
Que só ela pode fazer-se sorrir...
Se ela soubesse...

Lá vai ela...
Procurando uma outra razão
Para continuar a viver
Relembrando o passado
Que só a faz sofrer.

Às vezes, nos seus olhos ainda belos
Lágrimas...
Azuis como o céu
Azuis como o mar
Mal sabe ela.

Ai se ela soubesse...
Que ela é o nosso céu...
Que ela é o nosso mar...
Quem sabe pudesse parar
para sorrir !!!

Lá se foi ela.
Sempre apressada!
Atrazada!
Atrazada!

Mas ainda é tempo
para não guardar ressentimentos,
não tentar ser tão verdadeira assim
A ponto de enganar seu coração!

Ainda há tempo.
Não nos faça chorar seu pranto,
mas sim
faça-nos sorrir com seu encanto!

Lá vem ela.
Quem sabe um dia
possa retribuir tudo que nos deu.
Eu sei que sua vida não é tão grande satisfação,
Sim, eu sei.
Mas quem é que está satisfeito?

Ai se ela soubesse...
Para onde foi o brilho dos olhos,
cuja falta quebrou meu coração?
Quem sabe pudéssemos achar a contra-mão?
E podemos , então
Mal sabe ela.

Mas não se desespere
Nem pare de chorar
Pois a vida é bela
Bela como você !
É preciso parar
Parar para sorrir!
Parar para sonhar!

Ainda há tempo...mamãe.

Sweet taste,
On my lips sleeps,
The thought of you lingers,
Tip of my fingers,
Colors on you iris,
Vivid in my memory,
Floating in my mind,
Wherever I close my eyes.

And I know that I will miss you,
Increasingly as days go by,
And I know I will see you,
In my dreams tonight.

Since you came I have this feeling,
Revolving deep inside, burning.
No matter time or weather,
Nor distance too far,
Nothing will take what we have,
Since you know soon I will be yours,
If you decide to become mine.

Sweet taste,
On my lips sleeps,
The thought of you lingers,
Tip of my fingers,
Colors on you iris,
Vivid in my memory,
Floating in my mind,
Wherever I close my eyes.

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It's clear and fluid
I'm drowning in it, soaked in it
I wanna play in it, pray in it
Just spend all day in it.
This feeling taking over me...
As I ran from shelter to shelter
In my head I see her coming
During a thunderstorm...I felt her.
We danced around naked under the trees
As refreshing drops fell from the leaves.
Goose-pimped flesh
Her love pouring over me.
We were now getting colder.
So in my mind one more time
We made love in the grass
Now feeling bolder.
Even when the rain stopped falling
Our kisses never grew old.
So we made a rainbow of our own.
It's clear and fluid
I'm drowning in it, soaked in it
I wanna play in it, pray in it
Just spend all day in it.
This feeling taking over me...

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Retrieves,
Goes back to her world
No talk, no laughter
Removes, detaches the phone
Rejects,
Stops to think about things
There is a problem here
Broken part found
Since she’s looking
Every time, everywhere
Protects,
Covers herself with moss
Cleans up the mind and flosses
Thoughts of change
A switch of the ordinary
Change is the only certainty
Declares,
State of independency
Love needs diplomacy
Like flowers need lovers
And lovers need fear
To value their own garden
Accepts,
Packs her bags and comes
To the floor where hearts grow
To the arms of the unknown
Palm trees and skid rows
Appreciates,
The love found elsewhere
Stops looking
But becomes scared
When she sees happiness
But believes not to deserve it.
Waits, waves, ways
Ways.

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Liquid courage
Pouring down my mouth
I’m looking up
Thinking south
Body: temple of the soul
Castle of insecurity
Place to cultivate your shame
There is a garden
On my backyard
Where lost thoughs flee to
Wondering who am I going to meet
I see, look, seek
The curves change my perception
I still lust and reach
The is fire after the storm
It was written before I was born
Mind: birth of illusions
Breeding place of disappointment
Place to create fear.
Liquid courage
Pouring down my mouth
I’m looking back
Thoughts South

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TForces of nature
Hurricanes and tornados
The rivers and volcanos
Placed the two of us together.
I bend over backwards
You are changing the way I think
I’m laying down on the freeway
Of your philosophy of life
So we go
My chest is wide open
I see your arrow pointed
My poor target-heart!
I know you have the finger
Stuck on the trigger
The end and the start
Jesus, Buddha, Allah
Help me go this much far
The ocean is ruff
Just to proof
My thoughts were true
The rain started pouring
So I might hide for a while.
I know the symmetry is precise
And the time is right

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Shooting to every direction
You pay me some attention
My heart is your target
I’m bleeding already
Someone please help me
I know, I know
You come and you go
And I believe
You do like me
But like they say:
You are here to love
No one else but yourself
Spinning out of control
I see all around me swirl
My phone-new-TV
I wait patiently

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You came my way again
A light, a sign
New life for me
A feeling of hope
Second chance for love
I want to
Live my life
No screams, no fights
So I asked for
It’s coming , It’s coming
The beauty blinding
So I freeze
Without a word I smile
Your shine carries me
I feel it happening
While slipping
I am dreaming
While crying
I am running
Before is too late
Before it is the end.

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Super-shocking
Boring myself
For the very first time
Hell-hoping
I’d disappear or die
Car speeding
Ambulance coming
Comforts of modern life
Screaming in silence
What a torturous way to cry
I see it coming
The glorious days
Right in front my eyes
What do you do?
Go home with you.
When you do know?
Scare away the demons
The gloom of the season
The ordinary day.
Super-shocking
I’m alive still
After all the fire-drills
I’m a pile of nerves
A pie of jealousy
Oh, hopeless child
Lost in this jungle
Running through these Holly Woods
I want to go back
Get another pet
Grow old in a gown
Free myself from
Everything I ask
All the things that need me.

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"Take"

Take that flight.
Find me here all alone
Spend some time
Happily you roamed
For way way too long.
So here I come
Inquiring you
Requesting your attention
Demanding your redemption
Your wings are cut
The wounds, now scars,
Sowing through the skin,
Soft and warm.
I’m telling you:
“You love and you learn. And than you move on.”
Take that wine.
Pour it all
Because the glass is now
Half empty, this is normal.
The air is gone
You still sip it anyway
And find your way
Back to my heart.
Still pumping blood
Through the mountains
Of pain and paints
Consequence of this
Strange love you gave me.
I’m telling you:
“You love and you learn. And than you move in.”
Take the chance.
I know you are scared
Of this feeling we share
From the very start.
But don’t think too much
Believe that the touch
Of love will heal,
Not tear you apart.
Believe in emotions
Feelings and oceans
May bring us together,
Or take us apart.
The end could very well
Be the start.
So…
Take that flight.
Take that wine.
Take the change.
It might be the last
We have>

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Eye-lid-brick,
Blink, blink, blink.
Fight all the time,
The unconscious mind
Of mine. Oh my, oh my.
Air-mattress-cloud
Crunching, sticking to the ground.
The warmth I try to produce
Quickly disappears
As I’m writing this down.
If dreams don’t come true,
And you end up above,
If nightmares are real,
And you realize it’s called love…
The new day is here,
Not ready, never ready.
The night will come faster
Routine sticks in, stinks, sinking me.
Tear-drop-memory
Sweep the sweat and swim in it.
This life I’ve created
My destiny is decided.
Clock-ticking-bomb
Tick-tack, tick-none
No time to make up your mind
Some day I’ll say:
Take your time to sit and cry
You can rest you when you die.

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Escape from reality.
Scan my ID, not my sunscreen UVB.
(Please sir)
I am lipstick, not lips-sealed.
Fake-First-Class,
Plastic-glass of wine,
Tastes better half way down.
(Only half way down)
Fading star already dead,
10 light-years ago, or so.
See all the little lights fading,
From way up above.
Turbulence shaking me,
Making me want to know,
Why I write in the dark
With all this light surrounding me
(?)
No traces behind
Fading faces flying with me
Hunting my sleep.
Are you on TV?
I’ll sit down and see
That your soul is still there
And while sleeping you stare
The ceiling, sinking in…
I’m holding on
It’s coming now.

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Hypersensitivity,
From you, from me.
Evacuate the area,
Natural disaster near
Inside of me (inside of me)
It’s too late now…
We’re in this together,
Don’t question,
No need to dig forever.
It’s invisible!
Destroys me, destroyed you.
Clear up the space,
The plan has been mapped
A long long time ago.
It’s not up to you,
Not up to me too.
Bombs being dropped
Above us all
Fake democracy
For you, for me
Pack your bags
Go away on that plane
Before the inevitable
Artificial disaster
Inside of me (inside of me)
It is too clear
I’m the only one who can see
There is not time
To analyze things thru
But we sure have to
Invisible!
Destroy me, destroy you.
Fire up the West Hills
Long ago put you out mine
How much more can you go
Without the burn?
Without the burn.

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Sudden thunder storm
On my window pane
Brought down the gloom
Of my sunny days
Caught by surprise
The spark made a flame
My house burning down
Nothing will be the same way now
Close my eyes and see you see me
Moving serpent-like
The poison is certain
Freeze me, eat me, spit me out
Give me something to think about
All the reasons to hold on
Always close to the fall
I’m a silly impressionable being
You are just what was missing
The vice entices me
Addicted to the idea
Of being free
But you do push me away
I’m tipping to the edge
See myself falling
Now is too late
Too close to fate
Far gone
Done.

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" Dividir"

Se disser quer o ceu
Partiu-se em dois
Nort e- Sul ou
Leste – Oeste
Daria-se por certo,
Que seria eu
Com certeza
A pessoa no meio
Flutuando entre o abismo
Contemplando os dois lados
Com alegria e tristeza
Seguranca e incerteza
Minhas escolhas, minhas batalhas
Vencidas e derrotadas
A dor da perda
A cor da magoa
O gosto da solidao.
Se disser que amanha
O mundo se derreteria
Em chamas tamanhas
Tornando todo solido em liquido
Cortaria eu,
Meu corpo em dois
Da cabeca ao joelho
Para estar em dois lados
Do mundo, do coracao
Minha terra, minha vida
Meu passado, meu futuro
Suas dores, meu vacuo
Vazando sangue vermelho
Vendo tudo branco
Vivendo na escuridao.

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" Nothing Much "

Nothing much,
Closed guitar case in the corner,
Not a move, not a sound.
Teddy bears sitting on the couch
Fight against dust and the cars outside,
Roaring, squeaking, zooming in and out…
I smell something rotten,
So I keep cleaning,
Constantly fixing,
Changing the furniture.
Handy-man-woman.
Nothing much,
Someone playing a guitar far away,
All night, all day…
They come and they go,
Light a cigarette, tea, coffee, and raw sugar.
Sweets, chocolate and pasta with no sauce.
TV on mute, computer on,
On the phone: feeding tube.
Cat walking, climbing, purring.
Cables and trash bags.
Nothing much,
Just my body resting,
Exhausted from being in the middle
Questioning why…
I come and a I go,
Moving in and moving out:
Modern-days-gypsy .
Packing backpack,
Up and down Fairfax.
On my way home, on my way work
On my way NO-where
Nothing much,
Nothing at all…

" Where Do I Stand ? "

Three minutes to election
Seven hours until wake up
The world collapsing (in front of us)
My word already crumbled
New hopes, different beginnings
Encouraging, devastating…
I’m a soldier
Trying to escape from fate
Alone, sitting in Hollywood
Heart across the universe
A little cry, creating
Loving and hating
Life taking its course
But where do I stand?
I’m no voter
A no-singer singing
No-writer writing
No lottery winner
Not like you
Living day by day
Missing home
Just a puppet
Power potential neglected
Politicians holding the strings
(Yours too)
They are laughing at our faces
While people are dying
Being exploited,
Explosions,
Hurting and screaming inside
But where do I stand?
Everything is flawed
Everyone is rotten
Feeling the misery of humanity
I paralyze
A bug on the ground
Running from side to side
Making mistakes
The same mistakes again
My brush is my gun
Paint is water
The air getting thicker
But I shall not fall
Giving up is human
I thought I was made of iron
But I feel this in my bones
Eyes-sand-paper
Thoughts getting heavy
Mind very open
And I’ll never be broken…
But where do I stand?

Nao aceito seu julgamento nao
Nao preciso da sua opiniao
Para me afirmar.

Sabes sou mesmo diferente
Eh melhorque ser como essa gente
Que so sabe brincar

E assim vou andando
Me equilibrando
Em cima de muros e portoes
Fechados,
Trancados para a nova mente...

Nao aceite a minha oposicao
Saiba que a minha opiniao
Eh de se duvidar.

Sabes somos todos quase iguais
Seja voce quase muito
Nao sera demais...

E assim vou vivendo
Correndo e caindo
No asfalto ou em colchoes,
Eu nao vou me acostumar,
Mas nao irei me entregar,
Claro que nao...

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Crushed ice in a silver bowl,
A Pillow Book,
Or the story of your life?
Are you really everything you know?
Blood splashed n the deep blue sea,
Oceans of thoughts,
Or a breeze of happiness?
Are you affected by what you see?
Flames dancing for the wind,
Moonlight casting shadow from the sky,
A perfect tear-drop falling,
A dream you can fly…away…
The time laughing at your face,
Unfinished canvas staring at me.
Your browns have a beautiful grace
The magic only I can see.
Crushed heart on the floor
A never ending story,
Or a confirmation of reality?
Aren’t you afraid of the things you don’t understand?